monsterS pufferFISH

2008-12-02T02:21:00.002+08:00

RANDOM

i just fell from my effing bed and hurt my elbow.
stupid i know.
cant help but think -- negative.
who cares? uhh.
i hate 24 hours a day.
hair dye grey. soon.

try squeezing 10 fat asses into 1 mini cooper =D

2008-11-30T03:16:00.001+08:00

this is for you baby! =D

dont worry yeah. this friendship will stand strong.

dont always go about emoing. UNhealthy ar.

hahas. love me bahs! =)

2008-11-24T00:07:00.002+08:00

i pricked myself.
i made myself cry.

i hope there will be bouns. i wanna go back to school.
jie is getting me a gucci wallet for my birthday in less than 4 mths time =D
yika got me skirt and leggings from THAILAND! =)
am saving up. trying hard. am going to cut down on cigs.
and i wish my hair grows back to before i chopped it off. =(

please love me like i love myself. HAHA.
telling you a joke =D

2008-11-23T23:57:00.002+08:00

aamber

i still cry like NOBODY buisness.

i rush to the toilet like MAD.

my tummy speaks to me every SPLIT sec.

this is how i spent my TODAY. =)

2008-10-14T02:15:00.001+08:00

dont say you will when you wont. =D
hahs.

2008-10-14T01:23:00.000+08:00

fuck you.
fuck it.

liars. LIES.

2008-09-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

its been a year.
first anni.
with a pair of tinny eyes.
-.-

2008-09-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

work.

swollen left eye.

pain.

girlfriends STAY.

2008-09-17T20:27:00.001+08:00

me love BLACK =D

tired tired. i need sleep sleep.

2008-09-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

2 tones. black. white. LOVES

i INSIST. my skirt is NOT SHORT! =(

no.no.no.

stupid you! arse.

working. society. life. friends.

aunty amber needs a break.

i wanna go far far away.

holiday. resorts. sea. peace.

i miss mummy MX. daddy JASON.

auntyFEL. auntyJES. auntyKL. uncleCONAN.

2008-09-15T03:54:00.000+08:00

never ending

2008-09-14T02:05:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i get confused myself.

its mooncake festival! =D

and its candle melting time.

bout 2 more weeks to pay day.

LOVES.

2008-09-13T00:40:00.003+08:00

limited ed.

sometime, it feels good to be alone.

like ignoring all the incoming calls and sms.

=D listening to music and doing nth else.

sometimes somewhere in life. we just need a break.

dont you agree?

kit-kat anyone?
chocolate bar?

2008-09-12T00:00:00.003+08:00

yay! =D month of the year is over and im getting BANGS!

and im shadding my hair PURPLE with jiejie!

LOVES.

mao said something~

and i realised it was quite true.

i havnt been really dolling myself up for a long long time.

and she is happy seeing the way i am now!

cus the ME without make up and just tee and pants SUCKS.

dont worry kays? im all ready to doll doll soon. hah.

SHOPPING with MAO~ weetS.

i have too much for you to COPY. =D

and im glad you are copying.

cus you make me feel SPECIAL in a way.

thanks girl. HEH.

2008-09-11T01:49:00.003+08:00

yes, finally im blogging again. =D
i cant help but fall in love with black and white.
lost my love for colours!
anyway, i'll only be work and work.

dearest gave birth to baby JANESSA
im so happy and yes. LOVE
bless bless.

aunty amber mummy MX daddy jason and baby jan

aunty jess aunty fel aunty keli and uncle conan
all loved.

hidden sorrows and unseen tears.

you will never understand.

growing white growing black.

im loosing colours.

2008-09-01T21:40:00.001+08:00

phobia =(

2008-08-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

work was BAD =(
th moment i reach, i started to feel like im floating.
i see almost everything in pairs. like SH*T
rest for like an hour before i feel okay again.
thanks everyone who CARED. =D
all the milos, biscuits, sweets and ChoCo bars and loved.
thanks thanks thanks thanks!!
now the whole level one thinks i have NO blood. JOKE!

i still feel like crying. but i dunno why.
im just weird maybe.
im still a cry baby.

my new found LOVER = jessy!

=D all time happyPILL = honeyS

foverBABY = joanna

2008-08-26T00:02:00.002+08:00

blur-ed vision sucks to th core
havnt been online blogging ever since i dunno when.
and i'll continue to be busy untill honeyS baby is due.
im all occupied with work. and friends.
full time sucks. im tired even a part timer now.
days ahead will be tough. FUC*
and im gonna work 6 days strait. SH*T
(&&%^^$*&()_)*&%%#$

and yes, honeyS is right.
IT is weird. and people like me cant help but fall into it.

jessySweets, HoneyS

LOVED

where is my tissue paper?

2008-08-21T06:56:00.002+08:00

Sentosa - sun tanning
Singapore flyer
Singapore Zoo
Dolphin Lagoon
Under water-World

i wanna be a tourist for a day.

Kinship and Friendship.

relationship...

sleepless night.

2008-08-21T02:03:00.003+08:00

outing with jo today.
and im finally can-whoring today =D
HEH :) but i was too broke to shop.
i wanna buy a new bag for work.
and i need more black tops too.
i'll be working full time starting from 1st sept.
BOO. i wont have time anymore le.
anyway, photos...

amber and joyce

my beloved and me =D

puppet

friends are loved.

2008-08-12T20:49:00.003+08:00

BFshirt is LOVE =D
been busy working.. work is NOT really busy tou..
but the timing is like almost inbetween everything.
130-930 so ive got no more spare time for anything else =D
so sorry MX and jason, joanna and all. cant meet up YET.. hehs..
this whole week will be busy. so next wk okays? PROMISE.

Random

NO fireworks this year. =(

i miss my long hair. YES.

i want coach. iphone3G. shoes.

MONEY =D
i miss mummy's shop.

indulging in CHOCs. YAY.

cookies. chocolates. cereals. LOVE

5th night over.

momoS pissed

2008-08-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

i didn mean to be so forgetfull. i dont wanna be who i am now. i wish i could rmb things. i wish i could be a better girl. i want you to be happy. but all im doing is hurtting you. i didn mean to. i'll try to be better. i know ive tried for very long already. and im still not good enough.

sorry

2008-08-05T00:35:00.003+08:00

i miss my hair

i miss cam-whoring

bring me back back back!!

girlfriend is LOVE
please take care of youself.

will you be my tissue-paper?
my lill daniel kitty is home with me =) back on my bed

2008-08-02T18:41:00.002+08:00

BOO~ to bad days.

BOO~ to bad guys.

BOO~ to all bad stuff.

GO AWAY

2008-07-29T00:39:00.002+08:00

tags replied =D

27th JULY 2008

full of blessings and love

*now i pronounce you Man and Wife

its been a long time i feel so happy..

its like a deep sence of =) smile smile from inside..

i wish you both happy always..

and till death million yrs later bring you apart..

HAHA..

yeah, anyway, it was a tiring day..

woke up like 10 am in the morning(26th) and dong-ed all the way till like 12am(29th) with only totall of 2 hours of nap.. couldn sleep at all.. =) but its a happy happy fun loving day.. so all the tiredness is worth.. photos will be up.. sometime dunno when.. HAHA..

out with swts today.. OFF day..

fav prawning =)

than went to ah boy to fix some screw thing

and off for steamboat dinner *YAY

dearest, i love you

to all friends - LOVE

mx - i'll be there for you anytime.. just a call and i'd POP infront of yo!! and i have a gift for lill mx!! hehe.. bet you'll love it.. love yo!

jo - i love you to the MAX MAX.. you're my devil and angel. =) tou we dont meet up as oftan as last time, but you're always MISSED!!

all B.ite babies - sorry for the 2 meet ups ive missed.. i still love you guys the same.. i miss you all..

mao - will meet you soon.. and do take care.. dont mix with them anymore la.. you know what i want to say..

2008-07-25T00:17:00.004+08:00

babeh amber started the gold gold thing =))
woahaha!!!

grad pics are finally up =D

after soo long..

i miss all my babies..

1p-1v LOVES <<3

but not everyone turnned up that day.. =(
han, tanat, jiwei, nina, kimberly were absent..

and special thanks to illi ami em lincoln shidah and phiz!!
you guys were the best!!
please meet up soon..

FOOD!!

izzati, buddy, zaki, ayu, haphiz and MDM!

buddy lincoln!! and erica

2008-07-23T19:20:00.002+08:00

what is your fav kinda flower?
black roses are always portraited as mysterious, dark or dead flower..
in other words, lifeless..
=D

mummy oftan make random comments..
and through momoS words, i realise how much ive changed..
perhaps ive long grown out of that chatter box girl.
maybe im growing up.. or maybe ive grown out of talking..
i dun see the point of speaking my thoughts.. anymore..
im loosing weight.. cus ive lost my craving for food..
i dun smile as oftan, cus i dun see anything for me to be happy about.
oh well..
LIFE... still goes on..

sometimes tears flow inwards

2008-07-18T14:47:00.002+08:00

lets all just forget about the looser who tried to spam but failed =D
i still wanna thank all my wonderful babies for being there..
i love you guys..
i love my sisters and family..
i love MX and my nuER..
i love lincoln and illi..
i clearly know who loves me and who dont..
who will always be there and who wont..

love means friendship..

2008-07-15T23:41:00.002+08:00

theonlythingimleftwithismyfamilyandjoanna

im finally home. and i hope im recovering.. or maybe i hope ive cought dangue =)
so i can be hospitalised and catch more viruses from other patient and die..
or i hope my dreams of suicidal will come true..
i just hate the state of my life now.. its fucked up..

2008-07-11T23:45:00.003+08:00

my addictions to COW =D

work is UHHH!!! =((

paint my smiles =)

met up with MX and jason yest. and for that few hours i forgot all bad times =)

MX is so *xin fu now, and im happy for her..

her wedding is comming and i'll be in her Sister Team! how cool! hahas..

i hope everything will go well and smooth for them..

will be meeting up soon! LOVES

and MISSES joanna!!

its been donkey years since i have a good chat with her!!

my crime partner.. hahas..

2008-07-09T00:05:00.002+08:00

work is dreading like it was never meant to be..
tou working hours are short but it was never a *looking forward kinda thing =)
and finally, im back home on my own bed..
stayed over at swts place for like 4 nights. and i'll be over tml again =D

2008-07-05T01:02:00.002+08:00

bye bye long hair =(

life is back routined..

its all bout late breakfast - work - home

and on and on.. non-stop..

i wish i had to go back school again..

just like a yr ago.. life feels so much better back than..

to add on to the bad feelings,

LIFE HAS TO GO ON..

i wish you'd say, tmr need to book-in

instead of ive to wake up early for work..

it makes big difference..

booking-in means i get to see u at 6 on the same day..

working means i only get to see u IF u knock off early..

i cant help it.. but this is LIFE..

i know. and i need to grow up.. i know..

sweetness, i just need time to adjust..

im still a cry baby..

you know it..

2008-06-27T13:37:00.000+08:00

yes, im short tempered..
and you are getting on my nerves..
=(

2008-06-07T02:38:00.000+08:00

COLSED

2008-05-31T17:13:00.004+08:00

overflow =(

a heart too tiny, a mind too small.

2008-05-30T08:47:00.002+08:00

this following story may seem long.
but please read it.. it will only take 10 mins of your time..
trust me, it is worth your time.

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms.
The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat.
My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms.
So I carried her into our home.
She was then plump and shy..
I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water:
we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money.
When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb.
She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together
and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying
in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy.

But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life.It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love.
This was the apartment I bought for her.Dew said,
you are the kind of man who best draws girls' attention.
Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married,
my wife said, "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls."
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife..
But I couldn't help doing so.I moved Dew's hands aside and said
you go to select some furniture, O.K.?I've got something to do in the company.
Obviously, Dew was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind
although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it difficult to tell my wife about it.
No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.
I will be sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon.
Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer,
visualizing Dew's body.This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to my wife in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce,
what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.
Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her.
I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out.
Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye
and tried to hide something while talking to her.
She seemed to have got some hint.

She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, divorce her, ok.? Then we live together. I nodded.
I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand.
I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth.
But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.

I raised the serious topic calmly.She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words,
instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question.
This so-called answer made her angry..
She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping.
I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage.
But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement
which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.
The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.

But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me,
which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release.
The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer
and clearer.Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients.

I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast.
When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions:
she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce,
and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible.
Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later
and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me,
He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?

This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.
I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued,
so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.
From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom
to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile.
I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end the marriage romantically.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd.
No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully.
Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was expressed.
We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.
Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms.
His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door,
I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.
She closed her eyes and said softly,Let us start from today, don't tell our son.
I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door.
She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily.
She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.
I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time.
I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished.
Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple
and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,
where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc.
I nodded.The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses.
I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one.
Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled.
But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily,
not because I was stronger.

I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain..
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the moment.
Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said.
To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life.
She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.
I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute.

I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway.
Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly,
as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.

Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.
I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision.
I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce.
I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever..
She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you,
I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because
she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child,
I am supposed to hold her until I am old.So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap
and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife
which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card.
I smiled and wrote,
I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

i almost teared after reading this article..

i know how i always so "dear, you see you see" and "eh.... so sweet!"
and i'll get all so excited when i see old couples holding hands strolling..
and even as i work at hyatt, i see old grans holding hands.
i will always feel that certain kinda sweetness deep down.. =))

dearest, will you carry me out every moring untill we are old??

will you still cuddle me till i sleep 40 years later??

will you stll kiss me on my forehead everynight??

will you stillbring me to everywhere to watch the sunset??

will you still scretch my back??

evry every lill thing, will it still be the same??

i will..

2008-05-29T08:41:00.002+08:00

i hate morings!! esp early morning!

woke up late late.. and had to cab down to work..

CAB again.. its the 3rd time this week..

=((

anyway.. i hate hate hate you!!

ARGHZ..

you you you, peanut sized brained in an elephants body thing!!

so big in size still bully lill girls like us..

yes you helped.. obviously you did..

so i thank you for carring the 500g of BUTTEr for us..

on top of all the heavy beverage we were struggling with..

THANKS ALOT!!

and try having your wrist sprainned, and do all the work i do..

see if it hurts!

so what if i am pempered? SO?

i have valid reason and im excused, are you??

the happy stuff =D

meeting swts after work, he is picking me up..

and i can see myeslf sleeping once i reach his house..

im tired...

2008-05-28T09:58:00.002+08:00

hopefully swt can book out today..

i miss him like lots lots..

i know im acting like a big baby.. SO?

anyway yest was so screwed up..

i spent like all me pay at bugis on cab!!

fuck.. becus of A key!

arghs.. forget it..

i was too tired..

and im still tired..
i wanna go home, i miss your chouchou =D

2008-05-26T23:39:00.002+08:00

dear is back in camp..
and there is another exc tml..
untill wed than he can rest..
till than i'll be alone..

work starts tmr =((
hate hate boring boring..
and hand is still hurting.. its been 1 mth ald..
fuck fuck fuck the pain..

i wanna go on another shopping spree!!!

counting down 2 days

2008-05-23T23:47:00.002+08:00

kitty bubble gum!!
cute cute thanks JO! =D

dearie is sleeping, cus he jus came bk fro an exc.

one after another.. =(

4 more working days. ORD lo!

and till coming thurs can clear leave le. =D

im hungry. feel like pigging but......

(empty)

i wanna eat i wanna eat i wanna eat!!

mummy, mumm mumm?

hahas..

2008-05-14T08:12:00.003+08:00

WEDNESDAY..
another morning spent at work.
another day started mummy EARLY.
i miss all my late morning wake ups!!
or even, id rather have to wake up early to go to school than work.
i miss schooling days with you guys.
tou the school is far away, but the motivation is always there.
at least i know ill have a fun day at school.
but dah dah dah dah dah dah..

miss all the name callings, lepak-ing at void decks,
playing ah-li-bom, smoking tgr, all the what if questions,
all the sex topics, and all YOUR laughters..

sweetie is getting busy again..
with all the newbies stuff..
2 and a half more weeks..
just have to wait and everything is over.. ORD lo!!!
=D

i miss sweetie

i miss em, illi, lincoln, ami and shida

2008-05-13T23:18:00.003+08:00

one of the best days in these 3 mths apart from being with sweetie..
13 05 2008 - grad celebration was GREAT apart fro the borring presentations..
lots of photo taking and lots of laughters..
and all filled with LOVE!!

ami and amber

my all time best friend
and yes, the presentation was fucking BORING

so i started my own photo session =)

and off to pizza hut for dinner with all

walked ard and had our usuall topics..

slacked and laughed..

back to our old days..

and off to home..

more photos will be posted SOON =D

2008-05-08T09:56:00.001+08:00

IM IN LOVE!!
with my dearest daniel of cus =))
ITS THE 229TH..

love is in the air =*

2008-05-06T21:35:00.002+08:00

NO motivation to work at all..
now the only thing that DRAGS me to work is the money.
working here SUCKS.
i prefer the same kinda people in ITE.

lill bitches like you with BIG FAT ASS should FUCK OFF!
you mother lill thing, stop bossing ard like you're the ass of everything.
you bloody hell think i dun understand?
well MAMA, i DO!!

so thanks em and all for teaching =))

2008-05-03T12:27:00.002+08:00

oh great! there will be a graduation ceremony on this coming 13!
and it means there'll be a gathering for everyone!!
i miss all my dear classmates..
plus plus emma and illi are coming too!!
yeappies!
hope to see u guys real soon!
LOVES LOVES

2008-04-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

28th APRIL

outing with maomao again =))

pretty nerdS

haahs.. i kinda like the specs =DD

cam-whored awhile
as usuall =))

slacked awhile..
chatted and gossiped..
smileS and laughterS..
and off to home for dinner..

i miss my monster

2008-04-28T00:36:00.001+08:00

loved

2008-04-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

what is it in life that we really want?

money? happiness? blessings? career? merriage?

are you certain about what you really want?

than what are you going to do to get about it than?

what are the *might be set-backs while trying to meet ur goals?

what are you going to do than?

what if you get *lost while you are half-way tru meeting ur goals?

even if you plan to be the simplest, house-wife with 2 kids at home,

what must you do to ensure a happy merriage?

the health of your family?

a stabble life?

your house chores must be met..

what is life?

now, im lost...

dearest is back in camp.. back to his last duty..

and here i am at home.. feeling kinda emo..

kinda lost at the same time..

MONEY is the root to all problems.. (__)

i miss you!!

2008-04-26T18:02:00.002+08:00

sweetie is fast asleep..

so i was cam-whoring awhile

and blogging.

visited the sin-seh just nw with swtie.

i was so scared and was mentally prepared to cry. HAHAS.

but it wasnt SO bad.

the SS only rubbed on my swoolen parts and applied some smelly chi-herb thing.

and my hand is all set. =D

not much pain **

neo-prints on the 22nd with dearest =D

FUN

my injured RIGHT wrist. =(

now i cant work.

FUCK

HAHAHAS!! yes i can still take photos =D

2008-04-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

i sprainned my pathetic hand.
now its swollen like a pigs trotter =)
CUTE?! its freaking painful la.
just imagine your WORKING hand got stuck inbetween a door and a trolly (at least 10-20 kg).

PITTY ME
='((

2008-04-23T15:45:00.001+08:00

through the gate of no gate..

2008-04-23T15:17:00.002+08:00

220408
PERFECT DATE =)

thanks sweetie, i love you loads!
like mushroom and log remember? =D
i totally love yesterday.
but you know what? im starting to miss you more now!!

anyway, work was NOT really terrible..
just unbarable.. HAHAS..
totally TIRING.. i must admit im getting OLD.
one thing i hate about this job is that
this jobS scope coverS EVERYTHING..
inshort, most general thing, im working as a
HIGH CLASS HWAKER CENTER CLEANER..
LOLed =D

FUCK

2008-04-20T21:52:00.002+08:00

I LOVE ALL =)

SENTOSA trip again on saturday with jo

=)) and ive got myself BURNT

PAIN..

yes, big baby..

DONT laugh =(

and ARGHZ =/
work starts tmr at 7AM..
and i never had to wake up so early in these 3 years..
=((

i miss you monster!
my sweetest pie!
you are my big CHOUcou =P

2008-04-18T00:11:00.001+08:00

BORED

ive been infront of this stupid com for 6 hours..

2008-04-16T21:11:00.002+08:00

BOOhOoos.. im starting work coming monday.
more early morning rise is =(
but smile! cus i wont be broke..
and its a no work on weekends!
BAHHHHHHHH..

2008-04-16T19:54:00.004+08:00

photos taken today =))

on our way to sentosa

cam-woreING on the shutter bus =))

shells we picked =))
cam-wore again in the toilet =D

lunched at KFC

slacked at town and HOME

2008-04-06T19:02:00.003+08:00

summery over my weekend =))

prawn fishing AGAIN =))

its LOVEE

went to CHANGI with sweets and friend..

at MS with momo and sis..
i signned a new line WITH 2000sms and 200min outgoing!!
so i have a new number too =)
momo got her new phone..
some green and white looking thing. HAHAs..

2008-04-02T19:33:00.011+08:00

w 580i

this is one pretty walkman phone..

but i still prefer the w910i..

anyway, momoS gonna extand my line tmr..

so i guess i have to use my current no. for another 2 yrs =)

and momo is gonna change to w580i if it is cheap..

=)) pretty pretty phone..

im rotting at home..

so damn broke for shopping..

=(( i spent all my poket money on food!!

i must be crazy.. OH YES I AM..

anyway, i've put on weight!!

AMBER IS A FAT FAT PIG..

AND yeah...

more or less ive got almost all my GOLD GOLD stuff..

thanks everyone!! especially,

sweetest deardear! (watch)

korkor john! (wallet)

dearest classmates! (small bags)

2008-03-30T03:30:00.004+08:00

this is ME

addictions to fishing PRAWNS =D
long addicted to DANIEL CHEW (lovelove kind)

and i have an obsession with FOOD too

sweetie promised to go prawning with me again nxt wk!!

and we're going to IKEA too!!

its all YAYness =))

just hopping that this week will pass off smoothly and FAST..

with good/windy/no-rain weather..

only looking forward to next week..

2008-03-29T00:55:00.003+08:00

something is wrong with blogger..
i cant upload my photos..
and my lappy is seriously DYING on me..

i miss you sweetest.. MISS YOU..
and i miss school already..
my classmates whom painted smiles on my crying face..

MARCH
sweeties birthday
our 6th month
no more school days

anyway.. photos will be up soon..

2008-03-27T01:20:00.001+08:00

i love you!

2008-03-18T21:46:00.002+08:00

AHH AHH!!
i hate naggings.. totally!!
=((
SHITTY SHIT YOU!!

met up with jojo. went to extend my hair again..
yes again.. but it looks weired this time??
lalas.. jo did 2 strends. PURPLE..
=)) sweets birthday is coming..
like in 27hours time..
dear, hope you'd enjoy yourself.
and i hope nothing will come in my way.
and stop all the mood spoilling..

2008-03-11T23:53:00.010+08:00

portfolio is OVER
and school is ending..
thursday will be the last day im gonna see my babies in school.
feeling kinda emo bout it.
cus im gonna miss them.
all the stupid jokes and name callings.
all the smoke breaks and rushing home.
all the fun under the void deck
and how they thought me malay.
all the times they made me smile
and celebrating my BDAY.
all the past 2 years.......
esp EM, ILLI, AMI, SHIDA and LINCOLN

anyway, now i can hug sweets chou chou till i die on my bed!
i can sleep for all i want and dont have to rush to school.
ive missed 2 weeks of sleep and im getting them back! =))
okay photos

my long long hair

surprise fro sweetie,
my gold watch! =)

my cake
fro sweets

my kitty ballon fro classmates =))

fro sweetie

last teen birthday celebration
thanks to EM,EM'S GF, ILLI, AMI,
SHIDA, LINCOLN, ERICKA

2008-02-29T10:07:00.002+08:00

=) 29th feb 2008
a special day that only come by once in 4 years.
this is a tale :
its a good day for GFs to propose to BFs
but in my case, i'll wait for the next leep year.
hahas. maybe till than, i will propose? =)

and finally, FEB is coming to an end.
and i hope every everything will be settled and end here. TODAY
i wanna smile and laugh again with you.
i wanna you to play with me and cuddle me in your arms on bed.
i wanna you to hold me when i falling off like uu always do.
i wanna you to booboo me like how we used to everywhere.
i wanna hold you tight cus with uu i feel safe.
i wanna ride on fatMary and hug you from the back.
i wanna sunggle into your arms at night when im cold.
i wanna grow old with you.

but every evrything ive done

make it all seemed impossible.
im sorry. and i will change. its all my fault.

2008-02-28T18:02:00.002+08:00

im better off dead

i just realise it is not that diff for me to die..
i totally forgot i have an unprotected railway tarck with train ozzing pass everyday..
i dont need the mrt..

2008-02-28T13:14:00.002+08:00

i have got to be a better person

ive got 3 more days to complete my entire folio

than send it for print =((

i still have 7 more works to do.

after the last presentation means written exam.

i cant remember when was the last time i felt this way...

this was not the worse, but still .....

dear god, please gove mt 48 hours a day

the lat thing i wanna happen to me is .. ........

2008-02-27T10:06:00.002+08:00

rush rush rush..
sorry sweetie i have got no time to acc u..
portfolio is killing amber..
im gonna go blind staring at this fucking com whole day..

and fuck that teacher cuming in last min
and tell us we CAN have a presentation to get into nyp..
THANKS YOU SO MUCH FOR TELLING US ONLY NOW
FUCK OFF!!

2008-02-21T10:44:00.002+08:00

tell me what feb'08 is about again
everthing seemed like (*&^%%#$
i was so looking forward to feb like 2 mths ago.
its like Vday? my Bday? and evrything sweet.
but i dunnoe whats more left for me to be excited about anymore.

tell me ive lost my optimistic side.

momo said i looked very pale.
like im damn sick or smth.
perhaps im just drainned out of energy.
so many things for me to bugg into.

i wanna cry
D'=

2008-02-14T12:39:00.002+08:00

happy valentine people =))
its the love love day today
but the love in the air is so not think this year..
perhaps due to the "not-so-smooth" season?
bla bla.. like so?
everyday feels the same to me..

im feeling like damn tired these few days..

and thanks sweets for the CKin2u perfume <<3
love it..
really..

2008-02-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

anyway, happy birthday qing feng =))

celebrated his birthday with everyone at TAO's

a nice nice place with great service!!

thumbs up =D

cheers to all

2008-02-11T21:03:00.000+08:00

nothing seemed right these few days =((
N-O-T-H-I-N-G is R-I-G-H-T
i miss all those good days..

like em said, its the so called "break-up season"
but not so "break-up" thing, just the " not-so-smooth" thing?
whatever (rolls-eye),
its happening to almost everyone around me.
em, hafiz, ginny, han and bla bla.. and ME

anyway.
happy new year to who-ever is reading =)

and i know you'd be reading
im sorry. i havnt been a good gf at all.
and i never managed to gave you any securence.
im trying hard. belive me.

pour salt into my wounds

2008-02-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck

i just feel like swearing at every god damn thing

totally have no effing mood to do my portfolio

no mood for anything

i wanna fly

fly away

fly far far away

ALONE

2008-02-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

shopping with BABY JO
met him for 5 min
collected my dress fro CAS..
presentation tml =(
CNY coming, NO MOOD
everything else NUMB

i wish my cramps will kill me

FUCK IT

2008-02-04T18:04:00.000+08:00

this is so not my week..

evrything has gone WRONG

=((

shida just msged me and told me presentation is on wed..

momo is bugging us on the CNY cleaning and stuff..

and my cramps are killing me..

i so so so dun feel like doing anything now

just wanna rot my days away..

or rather...

FUCK IT

in search of peace within

2008-02-04T10:46:00.001+08:00

Febuary babies

0102-huiYing huiMin
1002-Shida
1702-Ain
2502-MissyAMBER
2802-HoneyStar

happy advanced birthday to all =))

2008-02-03T20:31:00.000+08:00

it was a unforgetable YESTERDAY =))

- shopped with sweetie w/o his bike

- saw 2 women (around late 20s) FIGHTING in topshop

- bought my flats for CNY

- watched Rambo4

- had bad cramps at night =((

030208

- did my illustrations at sweets house

- MC for tml =D

- PAIN

my birthday wish list =))

gold gold stuff ** gold-transparant Guess? bag** gold casio watch** Gold wallet** white palms** gold/red psp SLIM** more HelloKitty stuff** new badsheet** hahahas

i need DANIEL =))

2008-01-30T13:45:00.000+08:00

i wanna watch 27 dressses PLEASE!!

2008-01-30T13:21:00.000+08:00

a new blogskin - for US

im stuck at home..
cant go out.. cant go to school..
muscleACHES - BAD =((
i cant lie, im getting old..
its ONLY a 2.4 run yest and im dead already..
i should start to excercise more..
heheh =D

i need a FULL BODY MASSAGE!!

2008-01-29T19:28:00.000+08:00

sweetest thing in life

with the sweetest person

LOVE is in the air

im so sick and tired of school luh =((

and CNY shopping is not done..

i still have yet to buy my shoes, and barangBarangS..

school working is stacking up..

and my energy level is getting LOWER..

24 hour a day is NOT enough

))=

some RANDOM PICS

i found my LOVE in a million
DANiel <<3

my craziest babies in school =)

belive me, these are ciggrates

pretty huh??

3years of love

2008-01-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

124th day =))

have not got much time to upload photos..
i will if i have to time people..
and thanks for dropping by to see if there are any new posts..

anyway, i think im getting hang of ADOBE illustrator CS3 =))
but still struggling to complete my damn portfolio..
so so so busy la..
and im so damn tired..
no time to do anything..
i NEED NEED sleep
=((
but baby is bringing me to SHOP on saturday! so happy can..

zaki had a car accident..
and i heard he will not recover in 3 mths time!!
like oh no. than the school wrk how?
SO, to all BIKERS,
PLEASE be effing careful okays??!!
cus my friends friend just DIED..

i love my baby many many..

2008-01-22T12:29:00.001+08:00

i dont feel right =((

2008-01-22T00:21:00.001+08:00

just a simple thing =))

okay, i think im gonna fall sick again
looking at the rate im working..
im so damn tired..
but i cant bring myself to bed!!
my work are like so half done.. =((
but please dont scream at me..
i HAVE been doing my work okay..
aaaa...

the last time i had a real good night REST was on the 18th..
just becus i had a hang over..
hahas.. maybe i should start drinking so i can rest well..
JOKING..

so many peopleS birthday is on FEB..
i feel so NOT special =((
HAHAS..

LOVES-

2008-01-21T18:15:00.000+08:00

this is funny =D

2008-01-21T13:26:00.000+08:00

random stuff =))

everyBODYs feeling sadSAD..
anyway.. have been feeling quite lazy la..
so have not been blogging..
BORING..
assignments are like RUSH rush..
school is like early early..
life is like RANDOM =))

blablabla..

2008-01-17T01:00:00.000+08:00

Pronounced DEAD
Amber's heart have stopped beating
Date/Time of death : 17 January 2008 / 0109
Death due to over exhaustion

In commemorations of Amber
please rmb her poutsy mouth
or what you call STUPID face

2008-01-16T23:21:00.001+08:00

2008-01-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

outing with LOVE
XOXO

im his FAT girlbeautiful sunset =))

with XOXOs
RANDOM stuff =))

2008-01-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

cant live w/o you

was feeling kinda emotional is my past few posts
i should be feeling better now =))

see i'm smiling!!

2008-01-14T03:43:00.000+08:00

to all people who are happy and contented
i wish you all stay the sane way
with no much BAD changes..
LOVES-

to all people whom are feeling quite bad
i wish you'd learn to heal and will get better
then move towards happiness ..
SMILES-

to all people whom feel as sucky as i am
feel free to commit suicide with me
FUCK =))

2008-01-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

numbness =((

joanna
i mean what i say la..

visited VIVO with him on sat..
i bought myself yet another new dress
and he bought a pair of jeans fro TOPMEN..
well... im still not done with my new year clothes la..
i still have many many i wanna buy =))
i wanna look different can..
=))

anyway i slept my whole sunday away..
cool la..
my gums are fucking swollen..
the pain is fucking me..
=((

at the end of the day, i still wanna cry..

a walking dead
a lost soul
pain is empty=))

2008-01-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

amber
scared of the cold silent nights

there were plenty of stars tonight
as i was walking down that silent street
stared into that clear blue sky
i saw that same stars we saw that other night
up at MF just you and me
i hope you noticed the stars same as me

2008-01-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

roarrrr
i feel like a walking dead tonight
no aim no nothing
im left with me
amber-

had my hair extended today..
illi and ain went with me and waited..
my best friends in school, THANKS for being there..
THANKS for all the laughter
THANKS for all your love
BEST FRIENDS em illi ain and lincoln

and i miss JOANNA like forever =))
going 3rd year of LOVLYship, you never gave up on me..
my all time partner =*

mummy is sick too..
she rants and non-stop..
im only a full-stop ))=
sisS drifting further and further..
and i can only wave BYE and SMILE..

so let me end this entry with a smile
=)

my old URL fakedasmile

2008-01-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

i hate to say BYE
hate to see you leave
hate it when you are damn tired

hate to feel helpless
hate it hen i can do NOTHING to let you fell better

i hate myslef

2008-01-09T15:38:00.000+08:00

i hate rains

i hate school
i hate being sick
i hate how im feeling now
i hate everything
=((

anyway, im at home with sis and momo..
waiting for swwetie to come over..
and i skipped school today..
not a BAD girl la.. i have my MC..
will be back in school tmr tou..
and to think of it.. i'll be like graduating SOON..
and yAY im leaving that freaking place..
but im gonna miss my babies and bitches..

**rotting away**

2008-01-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

amber is sick =((
down with fever, cough, flu, rashes and suffering from pain in my mouth =X

went to my dentist on fri to tighten my braces..
cant really recall what really happened..
hahas.. abit brain dead now.. =(

been having fever since like sat or sun?
damn.. i cant rmb!!
anyway.. sweetie have been taking care of me like
loveLOVELOVE
thanks deardear.. love you porky porky pork yeah..
xD

i love DANIEL many many much much!!!

2008-01-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

happy new year people =DD
its the 3rd day of 2008 people..
hope you all are enjoying ald yeah..

spent my NYeve at MH again
with sweetie and his campmates..

5th jan** HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOR
AND many more jan babies birthdays coming up..
AMBERS birthday is on 25th FEB!!!
=)

i wanna do hair extension
i wanna buy a gold watch
i wanna a gucci bag
i wanna finish all my assignments
i wanna buy DANIEL home!!

2008-01-03T20:05:00.000+08:00

enjoy =))

outing with HoneyS
Cindy and Jason

my girlfriends

2007-12-30T13:42:00.000+08:00

SORRY :((

2007-12-30T00:30:00.001+08:00

random =DD
i feel like a damn freak
FREAK
i have an empty bottle left on a table
EMPTY
i lied im a non-smoker
LIES
im alone in my room
ALONE
i fell off the chair reaching for something high
FALL
i hurt myself
HURT
painful =))
PAIN

mood : BAD

ANYWAY
i watched RED LINE with swwet in the morning..
it was okay.. worth watching if you love powerful cars..
(good cars bring you to point A to point B
powerful cars will only get you into trouble)
and we were caught in the rain on our way home..
like so ARGHZ =((

anyway, i headed back to AMK hub to meet
AMEXjasonCAINDY =)
shopped at the NTUC and laughed at everything we saw..
than met MAO for dinner at J8..

and now im home..

fuckfuckfuck

2007-12-29T01:17:00.000+08:00

i wish i could really spend time with you..
both quality and quantity time.. =)

i wanna shop shop shop..
my but-and-buy list is getting longer..
*gold watch
*new short pants
*new guess? wallet
*more tops
*PSP slim (red)
*have my dress delivered =))
****************************
*and i wanna buy DANIEL home